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An Apology To All My Friends,

Hey guys, it’s me, Meghan, that girl who’s been annoying you for the past few months. Yeah, no look I’m really sorry for being such an asshat lately with my constant rehashing of the boy drama in my life.  From texts of screenshots asking, “WHAT SHOULD I SAY???HELLP ME PLEASE!!” to “I mean, why would he view my snapchats if he doesn’t want to talk to me??”, I’m really sorry. So very sorry.

It’s strange because I was aware of how awful I was being but for some reason I just couldn’t keep my word vomit down.  But thankfully, I think I finally know why I’ve been such a pest lately. These past couple of months have been a little rough for me, my grandpa passed away on the day I got my tonsils removed (which gave me pneumonia, WHICH didn’t allow me to go to any of his services, W H I C H resulted in me not grieving properly, yeah I’m still slightly biter) and all the while I was out of school early unlike all my friends.  I was in search of something (or someone) to push away  my feelings of sadness, anger and anxiety, so in result, I clung onto a shitty romantic fantasy.  I’m so tired of talking about it so I can’t even imagine how sick you guys are of hearing about it. (but if you wanna talk about it some more, I’m totally down.  But you shouldn’t, STOP TEMPTING ME GUYS)

I guess this is my way of saying, I’m sorry and I promise to stop talking about it.  Or well, I’m going to try really really hard not to.  But more importantly, I promise to myself that I’m going to make peace with the past.

I’m finally ready to move forward.  I’m ready to focus more on myself.  I’m ready to give my love to people who not only I hold close, but to those who also hold me close.

I must admit that I’m pretty fucking scared to embark on this new chapter in my life, but I’m also really excited to flounder about. It’s finally time to pour my energy into people and things that are worth my time.

^^Pretty much about sums it up.

Also, is this a bad time to tell you guys how I just met my future husband at the Apple Genius bar??

Ok, yeah got it.  Again, I’m really sorry guys. ❤

 

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